02975cam a2200337 4500 1863542099 TxAuBib 20250118120000.0 240409s2025||||||||||||||||||||||||eng|u 2024948684 9781400248940 HRD 29.99 1400248949 HRD 29.99 TxAuBib eng eng Holker, Allison. This far : my story of love, loss, and embracing the light / Allison Holker. My story of love, loss, and embracing the light. [New York] : Harper Select, [2025] vii, 232 pages ; 24 cm. Prologue -- Resolve and resilience -- Dancing for my life -- So You Think You Can Dance -- My perfect angel -- Stephen -- One and only -- Push it real good -- The boss family -- Baby, are you okay? -- "I lied. I lied. I lied." -- What do we do now? -- Paying our respects -- A staggering discovery -- Lean on me -- Home sweet home -- Finding my voice -- Moving forward step-by-step -- New routines. "Allison Holker was just eighteen when she found fame as a contestant on the reality TV show So You Think You Can Dance. Over the next several years, she had her first child, built a successful career as a professional dancer despite the industry being hostile to working moms, and fell in love with and married fellow dancer Stephen Boss, the former hype man and DJ of The Ellen DeGeneres Show known for his charisma and relentless positivity. Two more children and a wealth of professional opportunities for both Allison and Stephen followed, and the Bosses appeared to be one of the great Hollywood love stories. Then, in December 2022, Stephen took his own life, leaving Allison to wrestle with unanswered questions, haunting what-ifs, and the heartbreaking realization that Stephen’s infectious joy was hiding pain, addictions, and self-doubt deeper than anyone knew. For the first time, Allison reveals how she has navigated the emotional and financial aftermath of Stephen’s choice, guided their three children in their grief while managing the outpouring from a well-meaning public, and reopened herself to the next chapter in her professional and personal life. A beacon of hope and comfort for anyone experiencing grief—especially unexpected loss due to suicide—Allison’s story is an honest reflection on the pain of looking back on a complicated life and the resilience required to move into the future." --publisher's website. 20250202. jz. Holker-Boss, Allison, 1988- Boss, Stephen, 1982-2022. Dancers United States Biography. Television personalities United States Biography. Widows United States Biography. Suicide victims Family relationships. Grief.